a little something I wrote a little while ago... shortly after my 27th birthday. I think I was depressed actually. I mean, going through some kind of depression. a little unlike me, I know, but you can't be happy all the time. nor can you please all the people all the time, as Marley once said. Anyhow, here's the rant. please don't let it bring it you down :)
Searching for answers
Through murky waters
And my eyes hurt
And I don’t even know what the questions are anymore
But I’m stubborn
And there’s nothing else to do
Goggles and all
Here I go
Seems like a circular tank I’m in
The water just flows and flows
just carries me
To the end that is the beginning
That is the end that is the beginning
But the end and the beginning
Are different each time
But maybe that’s just cuz my landmarks change
Everything is slime-covered
Slippery, slips from my grasp
Never really had a hold on anything anyway
And anyone who says
I know what’s going on
I know what it’s all about
Is a liar.
Or a fool.
A liar and a fool.
And I may be many things
I may have much attached
But I ain’t no fool
27 years have gone by…..
27 years…..
and it’s not getting any easier,
this search, this quest
this life.
The answers are everywhere
Scattered around corners
Underneath rocks
Up in the trees
Right in front of my
Red, sore, swollen eyes
Gotta quit focusing on the finding
And the answers will find me.
And my eyes hurt
And I don’t even know what the questions are anymore
But I’m stubborn
And there’s nothing else to do
Goggles and all
Here I go
Seems like a circular tank I’m in
The water just flows and flows
just carries me
To the end that is the beginning
That is the end that is the beginning
But the end and the beginning
Are different each time
But maybe that’s just cuz my landmarks change
Everything is slime-covered
Slippery, slips from my grasp
Never really had a hold on anything anyway
And anyone who says
I know what’s going on
I know what it’s all about
Is a liar.
Or a fool.
A liar and a fool.
And I may be many things
I may have much attached
But I ain’t no fool
27 years have gone by…..
27 years…..
and it’s not getting any easier,
this search, this quest
this life.
The answers are everywhere
Scattered around corners
Underneath rocks
Up in the trees
Right in front of my
Red, sore, swollen eyes
Gotta quit focusing on the finding
And the answers will find me.
hmmmmm... so I'm thinkin how strange it is that I've started to write in this blog again, and so regularly. but as I ponder that, I realize that perhaps it's due to my closer and closer departure date. I used to write in this thing all the time!! sweet. ok. Enjoy.
I'd like to dedicate my current and on going state of happiness to the lovely Paula Sommers. she is a gem like no other. I'm so lucky to have her in my life. and you know what? I'm so lucky to have ALL my loved ones in my life. this year has been full of larger than life laughs and good times and you all have a place in my happy heart. so, to ALL of you. may you all find that which you need most. and may you all live life with a smile on your face. xxx
I'd like to dedicate my current and on going state of happiness to the lovely Paula Sommers. she is a gem like no other. I'm so lucky to have her in my life. and you know what? I'm so lucky to have ALL my loved ones in my life. this year has been full of larger than life laughs and good times and you all have a place in my happy heart. so, to ALL of you. may you all find that which you need most. and may you all live life with a smile on your face. xxx
