and i'm not in the best shape that i've ever been in, but i know where i'm going and it ain't where i've been...

so a few things have happened since my last post... which was a long time ago indeed! shall I start from the beginning? well, alright then! if you insist...

1. I got a job! yay! at *Remedy Café on 109 St. and just south of Saskatchewan Dr. I absolutely love everything about it and I think I fit in quite nicely! we serve yummy indian cuisine, as well as delicious coffee... and we're liscenced! it's crazy! this place is open til like 2am even on sundays! my shifts consist of pretty much just days, from noon til 6pm, and sometimes from 11 til 7, and I just might be starting full time next week which means that I won't have to look for a second job! the pay is minimum, but the tips are quite decent, more so than they were at Zuppa. I was supposed to work this past monday, but...
2. I came down with a throat infection of some kind!!! I woke up sunday morning feeling achy from the tip of my head to the tip of my toes then went and worked an 8 hour shift (which was really quite fun actually! I'm really getting the hang of everything and getting over the fact that I haven't worked in SO LONG!). that night though, hanging out with alana and shane and scotty, I became feverish... it wasn't a good night at all... I awoke the next morning with a terrible sore throat and it hasn't let up since. Zee sent me home within 5 mins of me arriving to work on monday! but I bought some Oil of Oregano and so hopefully it's offensive yet pert near magical qualities can remedy my poor throat soon... my jaw grows tired of clenching so tightly when swallowing...
3. before all this, my lovely soul sista Sahana flew me to ottawa to visit her and her lovely partner Davina! it was such a beautiful visit... I really got to know davina on a more personal level and am greatful for it. I can see what sahana saw in her and I completely approve! not that she needed my approval in the first place, of course! ;-) spending time with those women though really did a lot for my soul, my well-being... like a breath of fresh air on a crisp spring morning. thank-you both for an awesome week in our nation's capital! *muah*
4. but before even that, I CHOPPED OFF MY BEAUTIFUL DREADS!!!!! the cut I chose wasn't really any of the ones I had posted here for y'all to check out, more like a combo of a few of them... because I couldn't cut off each dread as evenly as I had hoped, the cut is a work in progress. at first, I couldn't even look at myself in a mirror! I felt so alienated from myself! I mean, it may sound silly, but I had a sort of identity crisis since I have NEVER known myself with short hair (childhood bowl cuts not included). while in ottawa, we went out to this bar and I was talking to the bartender and though I could see her lips were definitly moving, I couldn't hear a word she said cuz I was so preoccupied with thoughts of "holy crap! does she know I used to have long thick dreads? I wonder if I look better from this angle rather than that one? does this cut even suit me? do I look like that b-girl that just walked up to the bar? holy crap! all the girls in here have pretty much the same do! I look like everybody else now! can I handle this? is this me?...". ya. it wasn't pretty. but I'm for sure much more comfortable with it now and I promise that once I let someone take a picture of me, I will post it on here for all to see... perhaps from this saturday's party! party pictures are always fun! I'm debating on whether or not I should bleach it out... short hair's so great because I can do this shit and not worry too much about ruining it! we shall see...
5. and last but most certainly not least, I got 15 tickets to Ani DiFranco's gig at the Winspear Center on July 28/06! yay! not the front row center seats I really wanted, but really good seats considering they went on sale without any anouncement at all! shit... we (carly put them all on her credit card) bought out 2 entire rows and 3 seats of another row... and we pretty much have all the tickets accounted for too! I'm so friggen excited, and I can't hide it! I'm about to lose controle and I think I like it!

   *you know, with respect to no.1, I'd like to add that they don't have any sort of recycling initiative or plan in place and it really really bothers me. I'm trying to figure out ways that this place could improve and do its part in preserving the environment, but I feel as though I have no place as of yet to voice my concern considering I've only worked 3 shifts. I mean, with the amount of food waste - from the customers as well as the outdated foods - is incredible and would make a pretty healthy compost, but there isn't a whole lot of room for a compost. and the amount of 4l plastic milk containers we go through in just one day, there isn't even a reclycling box! and there's a recycling bin right outside for this very thing! the only stuff that does get disposed of properly are the cans and bottles which Zee takes weekly to the depot. I wonder if I should even bother asking about the recycling stuff or just go ahead and start a few things on my own... we shall see...

well, that's about all the new shit that's been happening... well, as far as what I dare share on here... there is of course a ton of shit going on in my head, but those thoughts are for the ol' fashioned journal - which hasn't been written in for quite a while now as well. I think the next time I write on here, something incredible would have had to happen, otherwise my life is pretty boring and not really worth writing about on here. just wait til I'm out and about again on this here globe! soon... soon... I just keep telling myself that.