so far nameless...

it's time now
time I gotta let go
let go of all these photos
a box of who I used
to be
a boxful
the lid is overflowing
all this time without me knowing
just waiting to be found
finally
I revisit
revisit all the memories
a bird's eye view, me on my knees
I'm sobbing, get it out
of me

this hurts so much I take a breath I close my eyes I know it's best I gotta let it just

poor and poor
through swollen eyes I barely see you but I feel you make time stop tic toc I'm gonna shut
the door

it's out now
out and all around me
I pick up all the shards be
mindful not to cut
and bleed
I'm clean now
a sanitary landfill
all these contradictions will
someday be the death
of me
I love you
stayed through all my bull shit
and I can't say there won't be more of it
am I worth it to stay
and see?

*any suggestions on a title, I will gladly consider*